Hawaii is sunny and warm. The days are full of crisp contrast between objects and blue sky. This surreal sense of optimism-made-flesh seemed to have a somnomulent effect on me. It was just a dreamstate. A week-long dream. The hospital on the otherhand is a manmade environment of highflow HEPA air, drying and cold. Staff working on 12-hour shifts and artificial lights. I am at a heightened level of awareness. Those monthly infusions remind me of the dread at being admitted urgently or emergently for unidentified distress. I am grumpy, but alert. Thankfully for all of us the 2-hour infusion never went past the 5 hour mark. I was not happy, but happy enough to be going home the same day.
