Praise God that you have not been left to the darkness and ignorance which continued prosperity might have involved...

I was wistfully contemplating the easy, shallow life I had been leading. So full of promise, and abundance. Unacknowledged blessings and privilege.

Now I walk around with this gaping cleft in my heart. My damn bleeding heart. And I can see the lovingkindness in the world through my new eyes.

Buy oh Lordy, the other me? I would have been a skinny enviable bee-yotch; double income, no kids. Elbowing my way into a corner office.

I wouldn't trade Bo for any of that. Just in my fantasy on the way to a meeting with the parent 2 parent coordinator, as we scheme ways to provide support to families with kids on tubies in the area. I think about my alternate life. The other me. Sigh.

Ha!